Period

I will  make more of an effort to write here the weeks before, during and if necessary, after my period. After the passage of that solid tissue, I was okay. I felt bad about all of that fussing. Many people  who have signed up for this blog are offended by my gumption to post the tissue on the Web. Well consider this a medically-themed blog. I am not ashamed of what occurs naturally in life. How could I be? It's just that tissue bigger than a .50 cent piece requires a doctor's attention. Clearly that is not bigger than a round .50 cent piece but it is thicker and it still had to be pushed out of my very firm cervix. It was like labor --all in my back and everything. I was in public shopping in pain, at the gas station in pain, conducting all sorts of business in pain. That is just how life is when I'm on my period. I still have to function in the world, in pain or not, taking pain meds or not, pleasant or evil.

warning: photos are graphic and disgusting I have been wanting to write here since Sept. but it seemed to hurt worse the more I wrote. Here it is January and it hurts really bad. The solid matter is pummeling my cervix. I tell anyone who will listen. I'm just going to keep the window open and write. Yesterday I told someone I wanted to stab my own leg just to have a different sort of pain I could actually see and touch and do something about. Not this gnawing pain inside against my cervix. I can't see it, touch it, warm it but I sure as hell can still feel it. I am so fkd up that I just got up and pawned my treadmill for $35 because I hate it and it is too small to actually run on without falling off of it. Good riddance. More room for the yoga ball! Now I gotta vacuum there -- another activity that jiggles my uterus. My Goodness I am such a bitch! My legs and ankles are so swollen that I can feel the skin tightening. Soon this will be over but not soon enuf for me. It do

I cannot get this heating pad close enough to my uterus and cervix. If I could roll it up and shove it up there, I would do it. I hurt and if I even sit up on the side of the bed, the pain will intensify into those hard labor pains again and I won’t allow that to happen. If I can help it I will. I don’t want to take more meds right now because I try to take the least amount so that I am not asleep all day. I noticed no one in my household cares but me that  I hurt so bad. The children shrugged it off and I still intend to go rummaging with mom – if she even goes. So I guess I don’t care about the pain either as long as I don’t have to feel it. The pain is even interfering with my viewing of the morning news with TJ Holmes on CNN. His smiling face and the soothing words of the president are helpful. I like to keep up with news items however those soothing smooth voices are lulling me into a relaxed state. The thing about sleep is that I don’t feel the pain in my sleep PTL but if I go

In spite of my medications, when the solid material comes through it hurts so bad – like labor pains. It lasts about a minute or so but they are long and painful minutes. I pray during these times and sit to one side as to not impede the passing of the clot. When it happens, I think back to when I had my son before the epidural. It is just like a labor pain. I was just commenting to myself how I haven’t been in pain enough to blog yet but just as my thoughts of Period faded away, the pain set in and humbled me so. I really had a pretty fabulous day. The pain happened but was minimal. It was a labor pain type pain but slightly milder where I didn’t have to return home because of it. That was pretty cool. I don’t take my medicine on-schedule because I want to preserve it. It is expensive. I guess the pain meds wore off because this session of pain was a whopper! (unlike the sandwich – it’s good and tasty!)

I woke up in intense pain this morning but ignored it because I know it is the pain that comes before the red tide of sorrow. It is at the beginning of the month sometimes and then drifts to the middle or comes at the end. It was at the end of the month for a while. I really have come to dislike my period. I usually don't fk with too many things I cannot control or at least handle well... see yall soon.

Menstrual Blood Problems: Clots, Color, and Thickness : - Sent using Google Toolbar

...it is unpleasant. I've already had two ibuprofen today. The pain actually started yesterday but went away. It started in enough time to prevent me from attending a school board meeting and put me to sleep through most of it until an hour before the end. I listened to the remainder on the school district radio station. Blimey. Anyhoo, here is an older video of me bleaching my hair: