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Happy New Year (the only thing changed is the calendar) photo is graphic

warning: photos are graphic and disgusting
I have been wanting to write here since Sept. but it seemed to hurt worse the more I wrote. Here it is January and it hurts really bad. The solid matter is pummeling my cervix. I tell anyone who will listen.
I'm just going to keep the window open and write.
Yesterday I told someone I wanted to stab my own leg just to have a different sort of pain I could actually see and touch and do something about. Not this gnawing pain inside against my cervix. I can't see it, touch it, warm it but I sure as hell can still feel it.
I am so fkd up that I just got up and pawned my treadmill for $35 because I hate it and it is too small to actually run on without falling off of it. Good riddance. More room for the yoga ball! Now I gotta vacuum there -- another activity that jiggles my uterus.
My Goodness I am such a bitch!
My legs and ankles are so swollen that I can feel the skin tightening. Soon this will be over but not soon enuf for me. It does not help matters that I am sitting on yahoo chat black chat rm 1 and watching the movie Knocked Up . Help me Father God. Help your suffering child!
This fell out of me while composing this blog post. It hurt like heck and I know I am not the only woman who suffers like this. The only solution given to me was to singe the inside of my uterus or have it removed completely.
DO NOT VIEW IF YOU ARE SQUEAMISH AT ALL.






I have the heating pad on but I am so irritated! Didn't Congress pass some legislation requiring those who make commercials make the volume the same as the programming? Did that sht pass or what? I'm sick of turning up and down the volume! Grrrrrrrr. period woes!
I am so nauseous.

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